UPDATES

Sorry I haven't been on here and a long time I had allot of things going on but I am back. I have somethings we new to discuss like  prostitution at a all time high, people lying for no reasons, how the we can make the economy work for us and FAKE FRIENDS. Give me a few days and all of these post will be up with my experiences on the issues smh lol.

But right now I need you guys to go vote for you girl at www.topwebmodel2011.com/vote.php

"Being" Happy

We’re living in the physical being, we’re supposed to make the best our lives and prosper. Make every second count with our time here.  Realize this is an adventure called life.  We each and all have our own energies, it’s us who chooses.  Once we stop and release any control that we will feel that one may have over us that’s the minute we will be become happy with in ourselves in spirit. At times we feel as if we gave control to something or someone but the minute you stop believing in that control your life begins. Like I mentioned in an earlier blog some people try to attach on to our positive energy. If you feel that you must release them and their negative energy.  If we live here unhappy, we take that unhappiness with us in the spirit. We got to work on bettering ourselves and take heave to happiness and cherish it. I take every life lesson with great importance.” I always say I’ll try anything once” meaning I should of learned my lesson the first time.

Stalked

I thought I would share this story with everybody today. There’s a man that I dated for only 3 months. Now this man stalks me to no end. I haven't been with this man in over 7 months and he continues to terrorize me. We've been back and forth to court numerous times and he still doesn’t stop. I continue to hear the rumors he starts about me and the rumor are so crazy and bad I can’t even believe he would say this stuff about me. Especially when he know what a good girl I am. Some days I am like what do I do to make this man stop. He tells me repeatedly that if I won’t get back with him he going to ruining my name and the streets. He told me things like he would cut my face and burn my house down. My family is even scared of this man. I’ll never been stalked this way before he’s tried hitting me and he tries to come to my house. He calls me 60 times a days. How do you make a man like this stop? For the record I don’t date men like this I know my worth as soon as I saw he was crazy I ran the other way now I can’t get away from him.

How to be a self made model

You start with a photographer you like, I started with frankantonio.net. you decide what type of  model you want to be bikini, face, hair model. Once you do that you go and start your portfolio it shouldn't be that expensive it depends on the photographer. After that you can go to any magazine website your interested and being in and start submitting your pictures to them. Every magazine has an email to submit pictures to, to be featured in there magazine. I work out of NY but you can be from anywhere to model. There is allot of photographers like frank hotsauce, linkzmedia, frank antonio, Felix Natel etc. you can google all those names I just mention This how i got started.

Love

I was just reading everybody comments thanks for the feedback it means so much to me. I love you guys thanks again xoxo

Thankful

God has blessed me in so many ways and I am thankful for the relationship I have with him. I struggle just like everyone else does. I am not a perfect nor would I pretend to be pefect. I strive to be better and better everyday. I have negative people around me that try to steal my postive engery and its hurts but I heal. We're ALL going to be alright.

Proof Reader

WTH I am accepting applications for a proof reader my best friend/sister is trying to clown me and say my grammer sucks, Bitch, I love her. Yesenia Dasilva whateverrrrr (spanish accent)

Staying focused

Staying focused, its hard nowadays its rough out here, and were all trying....  You can't let things stand in your way. There's always going to be walls and barriers that stand before us it's our choice to walk  away or knock them down. There's always a choice remember that??? Shit I say knock em down but I been knocking walls down for years and you know what...... More are just built "LIFE". I cant say that knocking these walls down hasn't made me stronger. I've dealt with so much and my life and I manage not to let it effect me as I move ahead but it starting to effect me now... "YES LORD"it is. I am still dealing with the shit.. I am a go hard type of person I am Leo, I am mean for my family and my friends of course and maybe some strangers lol I like being friendly you get blessings that way too.I am certain I am nowhere near done knocking these walls down, hell I am raising a child to be a man by myself. That's a situation all in its self.

Please I am not even married yet been close but I truly believe the Lord has things in store for us. I also believe we miss out on blessings when we don't wait for the signs and that's when the course of our life is changed. Iam trying to wait for the signs, I am little impatient lol. Remember when one door closes another door opens, I know what I want to do with my life. I think I planned my life out since I was 9 but getting there is the problem SMH. Things dont always work out the way we plan but get your self up, you dust your off, and get back on. I tweeted earlier dont work harder work smarter. Dont get mad just get your weight up!!!!!!!

Life is a Struggles

Life is a struggle and every day were rolling with the punches. You can't let your pass experiences effect your future decision. Stay true to your self and pray the lord will guide you. Every day is a lessons learned. Most of the time we don't listen to the signs that are put right in front of us. I am learning every day.

Proverb 23:3-4
So shall the knowledge of wisdom be unto thy soul. When thou hast is found it, then there shall be reward, and thy expectations shall not be cut.

Late Shoot

Yeah man I just finish shooting for thisis50.com and blackbookvips.com with Twin and Ivan those my homies foreal we had fun tonight. I think it went well and I got some hot shit too.

Also I got allot of video footage for you guys it should be out soon. I hope I don't look like a hoogie mama but I am just trying to give yall what yall want. I am feeling a little uncomfortable I think I might  need to hit the gym more but you guys can be the judge of that.

Well back to reality tomorrow I got three job interviews tomorrow so I need to take my ass to bed. For yall who don't know me I am a Administrative person its not all about modeling but jobs out here nowadays aint easy to find word up but wish me good luck.

Any way homies have a bless night and loving you goodnight *kisses*

Also this Blog is part of my new website that should be out and a week or 2. I hope you like?

Walk with Melissa, Ashlee Gray and Me

We need YOU to join Dennis' Daughters' Team for this year's AIDS Walk New York, and walk with us on Sunday, May 15th 2011. This year I'm walking in honor my friends dad who passed away April 12, 2010. Ashee Gray from Harlem Heights will also be walking so this should be fun :) and of course for a great cause.

AIDS Walk New York, the world’s largest AIDS fundraising event, benefits Gay Men’s Health Crisis (GMHC) and over 30 other tri-state area AIDS service organizations.  GMHC is the nation’s oldest and most comprehensive AIDS service organization, serving approximately 15,000 people living with HIV and AIDS and their families each year, and countless more through its prevention and advocacy work locally and nationally.

Register on our team today!
ONLINE: Visit http://www.aidswalk.net/newyork and click “Register to Walk” and “Join a Team,” then select our team name from the drop-down menu.
PHONE: Call the AIDS Walk office at (212) 807-9255(WALK).  Be sure to provide our team name when registering.

To learn more about our team’s involvement, or to register directly with Melissa, please contact her at monsantom@yahoo.com.  She will give you all of the details about our team, including pre-event fundraising activities and our plan for the day of the event.  She will also provide you with registration forms so you invite your friends, family, and co-workers to join our team.

Thank you for supporting AIDS Walk New York and for helping us put an end to this epidemic.


Melissa Monsanto

Running my mouth

I just recently had someone tell me I tell to much about my life. I just want everyone to know yeah I am a urban model but I got real life issues just like everyone else. I wake up with bad breath just like everyone else. I know you guys don't want to hear I am so pretty I am so pretty all the damn time. Plus I am a talk about myself before you can people just mad because I beat them to the punch lmao.

Being a Model

I been modeling since 2007 my first magazine was Smooth , since then I been featured in many publications I would like to become a house hold name.  I am taking modeling very seriously now I started and stopped so many times for many reasons like boyfriends, wrong managers, the haters. Modeling isn't easy it's not just about taking pictures some days you just want to say fuck it this is shit is for the birds. The advise I can give to the upcoming models take your time and you don't have to do anything you don't feel comfortable doing.

 I am a very straight forward woman and I say what I feel, but lately I been hearing people are upset with me. People I thought were business companions of mine are like fuck Mesha. This is the thing I have a publicist but I generally managed myself. Because I am a female and sometimes people try to pull wools over my head. and I won't stand for that. You wouldn't catch me secretly mad at you if I feel some type of way I will tell you because it would eat me up inside. It's a shame people are bitches and can't say "this is what I am upset about". There is time to time I will cut people off but that's when I feel they are hazardous to my health word up and you know who your are lol

If you ever met me in person you know I am sweet, silly and very friendly,

Go-Go Bar Drama

 Not to long ago I a managed a gentlemen club in Jersey and if I do say so myself I did a good job at it.I took my job very seriously. I am not going to lie I've dance before years ago to help put myself through school(not topless). How I got this position was due to the owner seeing my extensive resume and not sucking dick like most of the girls were saying. He truly believed that I would be perfect for the position and do a great job and I did.

Now all these women that were once my peers became my employees. Once I got this position I found out who my true friends were and it was pretty much none of them but who really finds close friends in gogo bars??? I had to fire, suspend and yell at girls that once my co-worker/associates. Any job I do I take seriously because the money I make it to take care of my son. These women couldn't understand that I wasn't there co-worker anymore I was their boss and I took it seriously. I wasn't on a head trip or anything. I got into so much trouble because I let them slide for things. My boss would yell at me because I was too nice to the girls and the girls would complain I was too mean. You can't please everyone I guess.

So now I haven't even step foot and a new jersey gogo bar and months but I still manage to hear what they say about me. For example I sell my ass, I do drugs and I steal peoples boyfriends. Which is really insane because I am against all that stuff. I believe in being righteous to point that I may seem stuck up. I am going to keep it real I don't like to be wrong so I tried to walk the straight line.

I am not going to say I am perfect but I believe in karma and in the Lord. I just find it so funny I haven't been there in almost a year and these women are still talking about me its kind of  flattering and sad at the same time they still think about me.

Lonely post

I am single but I am missing someone right now lol. I got to say to my self really Mesha take ass to bed lol

Things on my mind

Sorry if some words are in Italian my boo from Italy design this blog for me, love him hes the best. I should be sleeping i have a photo shoot with this Thisis50.com in the morning. Just got allot of things on my mind

man up

 I am actually cranky today. I am little tired of these fugazsie people smiling in your face and talking behind your back. I mean your going get that, that's what people have mouths for and at the end of the day I am still going to eat regardless. I just wish people would man up. Its all good because I am still going to doing my thing. My message to everyone is don't let the hate fase you. If you know your a special person then that's all that matters, you don't have to do anything to make others happy. The first person you need to make happy is yourself F the hater they can't fase us. Times are rough nowadays but they will get better we just got learn to stick together.

Welcome

Hi
I'm Mesha Seville
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